Participant 13
Story
“Born in March of 1969, a petite stature female with a heart that loves to give to others, known and unknown. Oh, I did not mention a germophobic since I was a pre-teen? Yes, that is true. I was full of life and energy. My paths in the workforce and volunteer service(s) include but not limited to: Accounting, Project Management, Chairwoman and Executive Director (for a cancer foundation). I've traveled the United States extensively helping people with computer software. Life was great for me and I enjoyed doing God's work! Fast, fast forward to Saturday, November 6, 2021, my life changed!! What do I mean by that? Well, that is/was the day that I was diagnosed with ''COVID 19". I had/have NEVER, NEVER been that unhealthy!! Within 5 hours of my diagnosis, I went downhill and I went fast! My 104 degrees body became soooooo weak, my appetite significantly decreased. I was determined to fight the virus on a mental, emotionally, and spiritual level. I spelt 90 percent of the day from November 6th until on or approximately November 28th, 2021. I was not able to concentrate or focus my mind during the 10 percent of the time I was awake. I pushed myself to walk up and down the set of stairs at my home. Yes, I was at home during my COVID journey. To provide you with more of a mental description, I was on planet that was full of craters, it was dark and God was there with me and for me. Through it all, God never left me! Whenever I was up and able to open my eyes, I continuously thanked God for keeping me here on his earth. This journey felt like it was a never ending; the days were long and the nights were short. I quarantined until Friday, December 31st. I noticed that as the days went past, it was challenging for me to remember period. It did not matter what time of the da it was, I just could not remember what I just did 2 seconds ago, or 20 minutes ago. nor did I/was I remember what I was in the process of doing. I then got a vision that I should not ignore my physical self, and I would spend 1-2 minutes looking at myself in the mirror. That was very hard for me to due because I was extremely weak and my equilibrium was very off. When I saw myself in the mirror, I was scared because I simply did not look like myself, and I continued to fight harder. Fast forward to Sunday, November 28, I was COVID free! Some of the residue I have from COVID is lack of energy, trouble focusing, remembering, and severe hair loss. Overall, I am and continue to bet better, my appetite is back, no more fevers, no more chills, and my equilibrium is better. I'm just not at the normal level that I would like to be on. I am an open book when it comes to be telling my story about my COVID journey. However, my sense taste and smell have not come back. Through it all, I'm GRATEFULL!! In regard to my COVID battle, I've learned and experienced, the virus affects EVERYBODY in a different way, on various different levels, and various different avenues. I believe "my life, my journey" with COVID was just that; simply for me to go through. So that I could come through a victorious report! Since I went through it, simply means I MADE IT and came out on the other side, yet still standing, believing and trusting God! The colors, shapes and textures noted on my body map are a direct connect on the various feeling, emotions, physical changes and/or challenges I experienced during the 22-day horrendous battle. When I look at my body map, it reassures me that I am a survivor of yet many, many, many things!” - COVID Long Hauler
Key
Body Posture: When I first entered my COVID battle (November 2, 2021) I was very much in a fetal position, which was the most comfortable/tolerable position for me. Plus, my body was in "protection mode." Also, the core of my body was extremely week. I was not able sit straight up for more than 15 - 23 minutes. As of January 2022, I can sit straight up for long periods of time. I stretch 1-2 times per day. I've also incorporated a light form of yoga on an "as tolerable" basis to my weekly exercise regimen. Since, my body posture is now stronger, I can and do breathe much, much better!
Marks on or under the skin: When I think of "marks under my skin", these are emotional scars that I don't see, however, I can emotionally feel the scars. I have an interesting burning sensation on the occipital part of my scalp area. This pain comes mainly during the evening/nighttime. There is nothing I've been able to do to "ease the pain." Simply put, I call on Jesus which lessons the pain during the flare-ups. I have not given up and I won't give up!
Color: When I first entered my COVID battle, the color I identified with is grey, which is often referred to as the dark/heavy and/or muted color. As of January 2022, I'm back to seeing the bright side and bright colors (one of the symbols I identified with pre-COVID, during COVID, and post COVID) such as: warm/happy colors like, yellow, pink, red and orange. Pastel colors such as: lilac, peach, and light pink.
Shapes: The shapes I identified with during COVID are:
~ Hexagon
~ Sphere
~ Octagon
~ Pyramid
~ Spiral
~ Heptagon
~ Parallelogram
* I reference these particular one's because they best describe the unstable, hurt/pain, and abnormal feelings I was experiencing at that particular time.
Lines/Textures: The lines/textures I identified with during COVID are:
~ Rough
~ Gritty
~ Squiggly
~ Noncongruent
~ Glossy
* I reference these particular one's because they best describe the unstable, hurt/pain feelings I was experiencing at that particular time.
Personal Symbol:
~ A New England Chameleon!
~ A huge rainbow!
Personal Slogan: "My Life, My Journey"
Future: One of my main goals I'm currently working on is to bring people together to heal, help, reach, teach others who have survived COVID. We all can learn from other people; known and unknown! The therapy sessions will take place online and open to everyone within the United States and outside of the United States. *I still continue working for the Lord, and I shall continue to do so!
Message to others: Please, don't ever stop fighting to get better and stronger! Set tiny daily or weekly goals and stick to them, even if it takes more time to accomplish the goals, just get them to complete/accomplished status. Be patient with self. The COVID battle did not in an instance, therefore, the recovery portion WILL NOT happen in an instance! It is truly a process... Please know it is perfectly fine to talk out loud to self. Don't doubt self! and always know that you can Jesus! Keep the faith!